So Long Cambodia and Thanks For all the Headaches

This is me signing off of this blog until my next excursion.  I'd like to say it was relaxing but frankly it wasn't.  I haven't been relaxed since the moment I left home 4 months ago.  My shoulders feel like small muscly bricks.  It's been a great experience for me but certainly not relaxing.  I feel that I have grown up in my time here.  I hope I'm able to revert back to my normal life, I hope I'm not too grown up for Seattle.  I almost feel selfish for wanting to come home so badly, it's almost like I'm saying "I can't see how anyone can live here, it's abysmal!"  I want to be perfectly clear that I'm not saying.  I'm not dissing life in Cambodia, I want to be with my friends and family.  I wouldn't have gone through all the mental turmoil that I did if my family and friends were here.  I'll reiterate one of my previous points, I'm not giving up.  This isn't me giving up, I'm accepting the fact that I'm not ready to be doing this at this point in my life.  Before I sign off for good I want to say that I've learned a lot and I'll miss Cambodia I suppose.  It's a crazy place of motorcycles, tuk tuks, and no traffic laws.  Cambodia, you crazy messed up place, I bid thee adieu.